result

today my result came and thank god sab badiyaa raha
om sai ram :)

Thnku

I m proud of him
Om sai ram:)
Ap plz unki har itcha puri krna jo unhe chahiye unhe mil jaaye ... om sai ram :)

Happy

I hope he understood wat i wanted to say thnku sai ram
Om sai ram:)

sad

mai kbhi soch bhi nahi sakti thi ki mere mana krne ke baad bhi mere samjhane ke baad bhi vo aisa hi krenge aaj samjh me aaya ki sach me koi kisi kaa nahi hotaa sab apne hote hain sirf apne mai sach me akeli hun pehle sochti thi ki shaayad vo mjhe samajhte hain bcoz he loves me but i was wrong totally wrong....
Om sai ram :(

strange

I sometimes feel i m so bound in these two sides of me i dnt knw how to manage i really dnt knw wat shud i do i jst knw this tht sumthing is there which i m not able to see and i have to find out ...
Om sai ram.. :|

Sai Ram

Aaj mjhe bahut acha laga aaj maine sai ram ko hamari shaadi ka pehla card diyaa unse dua ki sab kuch ache se ho jaaye aur vo shaadi me jarur aashirwaad dene aaye kisi bhi roop me...... aur vo hamesah ham par apni kripa banaye rakhe hamse koi galti ho to hame maaf krde...aur sachin kki chahat puri kr de...

Maine unhe chadar chadyi jo pandit ji ne sai baba ko tabhi deodh di

aur unhe jo parshad chadaya vo bhi unhe bhog laga diyaa aur rupey bhi chada diye maine i hope sai baba hamesha hamare saath rahe

Om sai ram :)

Fun

Aaj subah se mere ko itna pareshan kiyaa hain naaa iss ladke ne ki pucho mat pata nahi kiski shakal dekh ke uthi ki pure din ki band baja di hai ek minute kaa chain nahi mil paaya hain mjhe hadd ho gayi hai hadd
om sai ram:(

no life

I dnt want to live plz giv me death plzzz
om sai ram

I was wrong....

I think i was wrong about it and even my parents were also wrong.....
om sai ram:)

I m such an idiot!!!

Mai kbhi kbhi samajh nahi paati ki vo kyaa keh rahe hain aur mai baat ko galat le jaati hun srry sai ram
agar mjhse koi galti ho gayi ho to mjhe maaf kr dena...
om sai ram:)

broken heart

Sab kuch jhoot hain koi pyaar nahi hotaa sirf matlab hotaa hain sirf matlab aur kuch bhi nahi
koi nahi hai mera koi kbhi nahi hoga sab jhoot aur dikhava hain
sab kuch
om sai ram:((:((:((:((

broke

HE BROKE MY HEART

help

Aaj pata nahi aisa kyu lag raha hain ki sab kuch dur ho gaya
aisa lag raha hain ki dil par kisi ne bahut bhaari cheez rakh di aur mjhe kkuch bhi acha nahi lag raha kuch bhi nahi hope sai ram kuch kar de...om sai ram:(

Visit

Today sachin came it all went gud but i felt sumthing bad and told him he listened and will keep tht in mind :)
Om Sai Ram

strange love

Love is so strange naa u dnt knw wen u will start fighting and the next moment u r laughing wid each other...sumone said it right pyaar dosti hain...:)
agar hum ache dost hain to hame pyaar hai bass agar hum same sex ke person se dost ho to tht love turns into care and affection but we love our frnds thts true....:)
We love our family also a lot bcoz we r attachd wid dem sumhow.....
I hope sai ram ki sachin ke ghar vaali baat pakki ho jaaye aapka aashirwad raha to jarur ho jayegi mjhe apni mannat yaad hain bass aap bhi plz kripa krna...
om sai ram...:)

Thnku sai ram

sai ram thnku ki aapne meri sunn li thnx
om sai ram

Sai

maine apni taraf se iss vrat me koi kami nahi chodi par phir bhi aisa kyu ho raha hain..?? mjhe batao ye kyaa baat hain... abhi tak mai sirf sachin ke liye kuch maang rahi thi par ab mai aapse ye bhi kehti hun ki iss ghar iss ashanti ko hata do
aap kehte ho ki shradha saburi rakhni chahiye koi kaise rakhega shradha saburi mjhe batao jab ghar me iss tarike kaa mahual bann jaye to kaise hoga ye batao aap hi batao ye kyaa baat hui
har baar ussko kuch naa keh paane ki ye kaisi majburi hain sai ram ye kyaa baat hain chahte hue bhi kuch nahi kr paa rahi mai ye kyaa baat hain aur mere saath koi nahi hain mera saath dene vaala aur koi nahi sivaaye aapke even sachin bhi aise krte hain kitni aasani se har baar ki tarah phone off krke so gaye ek baar nahi socha ki vo pareshan hogi jab aisa hotaa hain to lagtaa hi nahi ki vo mjhse pyaar bhi krte hain kyaa...mjhe nahi pata unhone mjhe hurt kiyaa hain mai bass yahi jaanti hun
aur iss baar meri yahi koshish hogi ki mai ab apna phone on naa karu...dekhte hain kyaa hotaa hain......
om sai ram:(

I m happy....

Everything is clear
Everything was a misunderstanding.....:)

Decision

Today i decided to just talk about the confusion i m having
bcoz till then i will not clear it i will be tensd and worried
so its better to talk directly......

Relief

har baar jab bhi mai pareshan hoti hun aur sachin sone chale jaate hai to mujhe har baar akela saa lagtaa hain har baar bura feel hota hai mai raat bhar jagti hun plus pareshan ho jaati hun
but
first tym aisa nahi hua mai raat bhar jagi to sahi par mai pareshan nahi hun kyu ki sai baba ne mera saath diyaa vo pehle bhi dete the par iss baar unhone mjhe kuch amjha diyaa jo bahut jaruri tha maine unke path sunne shuru kre aur mjhe bahut relief milaa itna to pad ke bhi nahi miltaa....

unhone mjhe ek baat samjhayi ki tum sabse pyaar kro meri bhakti kro baaki sab mjhpe chod do jo hai usse vaise hi rehne do mat socho ki koi tumhe samjhega sivaye mere aur vaise bhi jab vo hain to mujhe chintaa krni bhi nahi chahiye ...vo hamesha mere saath honge mai jaanti hun om sai ram.......:)

Perfect

I always wanted tht those people whom i love may atleast undrstnd me show me atleast some importance....
but i think nothing lyk this is happening.....:(:(:(:(

Confused

dnt knw how to react but i dnt undrstand where my life is taking me...?? i dnt knw whoever is there in my life why i feel tht they r moving away from me i dnt knw but i m confused and sad too:(:(:(:(:(:::(((

life changes its color

As i m getting married, discussions go on in the house...... today mom said to me for the second tym tht dnt buy lehngaa just takee on rent i m distrbd i dnt want tht but later on i just felt ....tht okk watever she is saying but i will buy it as its important to me....... i m fine wid her everything is okay :):):):):))::)):)

My family

                                                  mere sai ram mjhe aashirwad de rahe hain

                                            my bro vikas and bro-in-law jatin

                                           my sis-in-law sandhya di

                                             my 3 bros aakash,saurabh,gaurav gandhi ji ke 3 bandar lolx

                                                              my father and tau ji

                                                 my sis anjala di jiju and kunj

                                                    my bro, mother-in-law and father-in-law

                                     my mother and mamamami masi masar and cousins

                                             the new one in my family kkavya

I m mean

I m so mean naa jab tak mjhe sai ram ki jada jarurat thi tab tak toh mai unki itni puja krti thi par ab mai krti hu par utni nahi
I hope jo maine aaj abhi se krne ki sochi hain usme mai safal ho jao
Om Sai Ram :)

the one who was always there

He was always there wenever i called him he helped me always...om sai ram

Fine

This is me and my husband.......
I m so happy tht this time came in my life hope
the time of waiting will also pass :)

i m happy:)

I m happy as my marks in co were 60 i was so tensd about it ...... thank god thnx to sai ram

strange world

so easily people believe watever they r told....they never think naa wat is right and wat is wrong....and with al tht steps who will be effected and how will be effected.....i dnt knw why but why this happens wid me always nd why i cant change myself thinking tht i dont care....why do i care...and no one else does :(

Sensitive

Why i am so sensitive why i feel so bad about anything wat happens to me...why i m this type of person...why i cant just feel the right always
why always i have to suffer.....why??
i knw tht no one will ever help but then also why do i expect someone to....?

Strange things happen in life

I am still awake i was awake the whole night
I dnt kno the exact reason tht why i m distrbd but i m .....
I dnt knw why
may be ther is something wrong..may be sai ram wants me to come to his place and i m not able to...but i will do so very soon......

om sai ram...i dnt know wat is happning wid me but its too strange ...
Today i mean the last night sumthing happnd...i never even thought of this....i was just being nice to the person who matters a lot to sumone who is a lot to me....i never realised tht it will become so untidy and stupid too i did sumthing stupid but not much for jitendra to just hurt me the way he did but its okk i know he was angry now i m just not feeling good about me as i dnt knw tht those two persons...wat will they be thinking about me...at first i m feeling everythngs okkk but at the same tym i think tht my whole position the thoughts they hold about me r vanishd i dnt knw wat to do wat to say and to whom i shud say all this.....the only thing matters is wat they will think about me.....bcoz i always wanted tht in my in laws family or anybody connected to them shud always think good  for me bcoz of my deeds but sumwhere now i m feeling tht this dream of mine will break...i m too distrbd bcoz of tht...the question is not this tht who is what to you but the question is this dream matters to me  a lot may be more than my own life bcoz this is connected to my husband.....:(
i hope sai ram will take care of it i really hope so....and i knw tht i have to do sum work of you sai ram,,,....i will do it dnta wrry.....

hey srry i m not regularly posting but wat to do sometimes just get too busy for this..I love my family but why they all cant live peacefully...i dnt understand wen they will understand our feelings....leave it ...thez all things are now very common for me.....i dnt knw wenever i feel tht sachin is talking to a girl i feel so jealousand i start acting so stupid but i cant help it wat to do....thers no solution for it........:)

Hey srry for not writing from 2 dayz..... was jus busy...today i made non-veg everyone likd it....i m learning all this so tht no one can ever say anything wrong about me...i always want tht everyone shud be happy wid me...... sum more things i wanna do specially for my love my husband.....i dnt knw will i be able to suceed or not?? but i will try my level best
I always pray to sai ram to keep him happy and give him watever he wants and always lead him to the right path
om sai ram

I always experience tht my sai ram help me in some way or the other. We all r afraid of flod as it is already in mda but i dnt knw why i hav a strong feeling tht nothing bad will happen...just bcoz of the trust oon sai ram..rather i m not able to do the worship the way i think but i will surely try tht.......rest is all fine.....day by day time is coming near of the wedding i m excited also but sad too...as i will be away from my family....why this happens god...?

Sai Baba

Sai baba always helped me to achieve what i wanted . Today i m standing at a position where i m not able to think wat to ask to god to give bcoz of sai ram i got everything i wanted and the same way i wanted . Today i m starting this blog so tht I can always write my feelings in it .
Om Sai Ram